Thursday, March 24, 2011

And the changes continue...



Welllll... apparently MBA programs require a minimum of two years, post-grad, full-time, professional experience before admittance into their programs. So now that I've paid over $300 for the various entrance exams, have been studying my butt off, and have been freaking out non-stop over which school, online or on-campus, etc... I can't go for another year or two anyway. I talked to an FSU admissions officer yesterday and they want FIVE years minimum experience. I'm crushed. I would like to think I'm strong and that this is just another thing I can bounce back from, but I'm exhausted. From moving cross-country to California, to spending six depressing months looking EVERYWHERE for a job, to deciding to move back to the southeast and all of the unknowns that come with that, like where am I going to live, what am I going to do, is it going to take that long to find a job again, how long will I go without seeing NTP, oh yeah, and ANOTHER flipping surgery... I'm simply worn out. I obviously do not handle change or stress as well as I thought. I just want to know what I'll be doing in two months. I want that stability back. I thought I'd get it by going back to school. I'd be studying and working towards a goal. Instead, I'm studying for pretty difficult tests just so I can wait however many years until I have enough experience. And what really stinks, is by then I would like to think I'll have a full-time job and be married or close to it. That's not the time I want to be going back to school. Unfortunately, that's how these programs are designed.

I'm sorry to go on and on ranting. I have a lot to be thankful for. I really do. I'm just seriously struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

NTP walked in on me crying last night. He grabbed the car keys, told me to put on a jacket, and took me to Chili's for my favorites - a strawberry margarita, skillet queso, and a chocolate molten lava cake. It's the little things, right?

4 comments:

sweethomeamy said...

Aww you poor thing!! I understand your frustrations more than you know. You can & will get through this! ::hugs::

Scientific Housewife said...

I'm sorry to hear about all that but I'm sure it will get better!

Melissa said...

I'm so sorry :(
I know exactly how you're feeling. I've been going through this same situation since graduation. I'm doing a job someone with a high school degree could figure out..but unfortunately they wouldn't even get it. It's hard, but keep your chin up because honestly it will all work out, because it just has to.
Just remember..your job is just what pays for your life outside of work, which is what's really important.

Ky said...

:( I dont like this one bit.